The other morning I was talking with the Lord and sharing with Him that I had realized that not knowing how long this journey will be, especially the IV part, has been unsettling to me as of late and I was surrendering to what He has for me in this journey. I was thanking Him for the IV therapy and the very sweet and precious group of people that I get to see and connect with twice a week.
As I was reading “Beat Cancer Daily” by Chris Wark, this one really fit today’s bill and I thought I would share it here.
“A straight path is what I want. It’s the shortest and fastest way to get where I want to go.” Yes, that is it! Of course, I want the “shortest of short” paths, but I want my focus to be on the “straight path of the Lord!” So much of my life journey with the Lord has involved sidetracks, detours, and wild goose chases that have wasted my time, effort, energy and money.
I am grateful our family, for the many friends, and people I have not yet met (through prayer groups) who are praying for me and our family. Each and every prayer means so much to me and I don’t see how it’s possible to ever fully express the gratitude that I feel. But, I want to try and let you all know that I appreciate your prayers SO MUCH!
I thought I would update some specific things that you all could pray for. I put a bullet list here and will elaborate more down below, for those who are more interested in a bit of a longer read.
Please pray for an appointment with Dr. Cochran to open up much sooner than October.
Please pray for hemorrhoids & sore throat to be fully and completely resolved.
Please pray and declare Isaiah 26:3 that the Lord will keep me in perfect peace with weekly IV therapy issues as I continue to trust Him more and more and as I continue to reign in my thoughts to be fixed on Him!
Please pray for wisdom and discernment in sorting out all the information for how to support and advocate for my own health.Please pray for a peace from the Lord that “He has us” and for the creative ideas for how to cooperate with Him for financial provision all the way through this journey.
And a last request to pray for wisdom and clear hearing from the Lord for some difficult decisions I am in the process of considering with regard to conventional treatments.
Right now I feel a little bit like I am in a holding pattern, but in reality I know that is not true. I am finally set up with the ND that I feel confident in, however his first opening in his calendar is October 1. He is, fortunately, currently overseeing my IV therapy, but we need to get that consultation so he can give full recommendations of how to hit things hard and move forward. I am on a cancellation list, to be called if there is a cancellation. Please pray for an appointment for me to open up much sooner than October.
For some time I have been dealing with hemorrhoids and Dr. Sarah gave me a supplement called Collinsonia Root to help. I am thanking the Lord that I got some initial relief within days. Please pray for that to be fully and completely resolved.
For the past two + weeks I have had a sore throat. At first I thought it was a general sore throat, then I wondered if it was related to smoke from the wildfires as the air quality got poor that week. Now, I think it’s more related to things, like H. Pylori, that is attacking my digestive system. I am finding it painful to take my supplements, eat, and sometimes drink. Please pray for ideas for how to help that and for that to resolve.
Okay, so… I have never been a fan of needles and have had a bit of a needle phobia. I have been doing pretty good since this has all started as I have been poked more than ever in my life. I have had some measures of anxiety around the IV’s and have done pretty good until I started to have above the normal pain in my left arm when they have tried to get the needle in. The one person who was able to work with that vein is Alex (his other job is paramedic) and he said it was either that they were hitting a nerve or possibly my tendon that is right next to my vein. One day, I wasn’t able to calm the anxiety and ended up in tears. Eric was very empathetic, which is so amazing since he doesn’t relate to the anxiety and is very comfortable with doing his own IV’s on himself. He tried a completely different vein, and though the needle went in he wasn’t able to get the catheter to take and so went back to my main vein using lidocaine. The right arm is now developing some scar tissue and was bruised from the previous IV so we went back to the left arm for the treatment, which was doable with lidocaine, but also still painful. For the most part, I am doing pretty good with the anxiety and am working on learning how to navigate through that. I really do love all the people there and they make me feel safe and cared for. I am really grateful for the treatments I am receiving and how good they are for assisting my body to do what needs to be done at the cellular level. The idea that there is no end date on the horizon for the IV treatments sometimes overwhelms me and I am just leaning on the Lord for the inner strength to stay positive and upbeat about it all. Please pray and declare Isaiah 26:3 that the Lord will keep me in perfect peace as I continue to trust Him more and more and as I continue to reign in my thoughts to be fixed on Him!
I am continuing to educate myself and I have several books I am going through and sorting out the information so I can advocate for myself with each and every doctor on my team. There is SO MUCH to consider and that would take a lot to go into here on this post, but therefore will save that for another time when I have a better idea on how to narrow it down. Please pray for wisdom and discernment in sorting out all the information.
The treatments I am doing and the supplements I am taking are not covered by insurance. These past few weeks we added an additional protocol to my IV treatment, and the cost of all that we are doing is a bit of a shock to our pocketbook, at the tune of about $5,000 per month. First and foremost, we are trusting the Lord for provision and doing what we know to cooperate and be active alongside Him and listening for ideas and ways to generate the needed additional monthly funds. I am sure most, if not all, of you know that we have started a GoFundMe and we have been so amazed and blessed at the generosity that has come our way. The generosity of people we have known for years and years, that we know well, and that we are just getting to know moves our hearts to tears of gratitude. As the costs increase and we don’t have an end in sight (yet), we are trusting the Lord to show us the path He has for us financially, as well. We have a few beginnings of ideas in the works, starting with the GoFundMe campaign and some ideas to increase our income through Dan’s business, ultimately with our hearts desire to grow and walk in God’s principles of sowing and reaping. I hope to elaborate on that soon. In the meantime, please pray for a peace from the Lord that He has us and for the creative ideas for how to cooperate with Him for financial provision all the way through this journey.
And a last request to pray for wisdom and clear hearing from the Lord for some difficult decisions I am in the process of considering with regard to conventional treatments.
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